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Because some people asked, by email, in the FAQ, I will write it in public here, what is/was with my baby,copied in from one email answer.

I wrote before—Nathan was born on August 5, 2009. Not really too early, only 2 1/2 weeks earlier, he was cut out :-( (I wanted to give birth at home or in a birth house, never a hospital, and NEVER NEVER a sectio) because the CTG (not sure that's the same in English? the heart beats) went a bit bad. The problem was, that he did not grow anymore inside me. So he was nearly to-date, but not even 1700g (3,7 US pound) heavy and 43cm (16,9") big. He had the umbilical cord 4 times around his neck plus a very strong knot in it.

We spent 5 weeks in hospital and only a few days after birth they found out he had 2 holes in his heart and the ductus arteriosus would't close. means 3 cardiac defects. After those 5 weeks we got home with the tube in his nose to feed what he needed. He did drink a very little from the breast and even less from the bottle, and beginning of november, he stopped drinking completely. He was then even completely fed by the tube, me pumping the milk from the breast with an electric pump.

January 13^th was the heart operation, his chest was opened and they stopped the heart to close the holes and the ductus. But he survived brilliantly and got healthy so fast, we could go home only 6 days after operation. But he still did not drink, because he got used to the tube, did not know hunger, and had a posttraumtic feed problem (traumatised probably from hospital were he had to drink and drink and drink). So we went in the middle of March to hospital for 4 weeks to teach him how to drink and eat.

So there we're to day, he's 9 months old. He does not eat and drink much (drinking 100ml from a bottle, eating 4 times half a glass = 4x100g, if it is a good day). He slowly got the weight he lost there in hospital back, now lost about 100g again because we have a little cold and he gets his teeth, many in only few days, and again eats only a little bit.

We have the hardest time behind us, he could eat by himself after 8 1/2 months of life and I hope, he will be a better eater and drinker in the future.

Sorry for the lack of updates for the last 9 months, but there's so much more important things in life!

I'm sorry I don't and didn't reply to all emails/posts in forums/FAQ questions etc. in August.

I'm happy to tell you that on August 5 my Son Nathan was born.

Sadly, he was born per sectio (because he got too weak inside me) in 38^th week but with only 1700g, so only half of what a baby should weight, and nobody knows what the reason is. We're still in hospital because he a) needs to learn drinking and b) they found 3 cardiac defects and needs to get a lot of heart medicaments and at the end an operation in about half a year. He also didn't raise weight for some days.

So I won't be much online as long as I am here in hospital and I have no idea how life back at home will be with his heart problems as we will have to run to doctors nearly every day....how my life will look for the next year.